I’ve had many nightmares involving being trapped. Hiding myself, not wanting to be found out. I guess my daytime struggles with allowing myself to be seen sometimes turn into nighttime terrors of being discovered.
I don’t want to be seen as something I’m not.
In the past, whenever I got into a blogging streak, I would start to feel internal pressure to continue to write on only one topic. I’ve always struggled with fully accepting all aspects of myself, and so I find it challenging to not avoid or diminish parts of my identity and values.
Perhaps I do just want to fit in.
Sometimes I dim my light down. Say a little less or delete instead of share. I quiet myself to try and be more palatable, even though I know I’m not to everyone’s tastes.
Turning down my flame only turns up my anxiety. I, like all you out there, am made to shine. We are made to light up with love. Joy. Passion. Happiness.
We are love incarnate.
Now, when I discover myself hiding in a dream, or hiding in my waking life, I take back my control. I know I am the co-creator of my destiny, and that the Universe always has my back.
I will not cower, nor will I cover my light any longer. I will not hide, dim, soften, or doubt my inner flame.
I am made to glow.